So after all
this time, I finally managed to be way late for my own bloghop. It’s been a
long week and I got home so late that I just couldn’t focus. I decided to sit
back and sort through my goals for July in the morning (because I didn’t have
time to do it all week).
And when I
finally managed to sit down and put this post together, I realized that I’ve
got to be realistic and completely change the way I’m approaching my goals.
Why?
Let me show you…
Writing
Goals:
1) 60 000 words written, 60 hours
of edits or some combination of those.
The
equivalent of 23k words.
2) Find and submit to Critique
Partners for Wo6C3
Sent
to one CP and in short, Wo6C3 needs only a ton more work before I can send it
out to more.
3) Critique works by critique
partners.
I’m
waiting for my CP’s work.
4) Edit ES1
Didn’t
look at it.
5) Prep rewrite for BvB2.
I
managed to think of this a few times before I had to do something else.
6) Complete revisions to O1
I
revised two chapters.
7) Add 10000 words to StW1
Added
almost 8k words.
8) Work on CdW concept
Nope.
Nope.
9) Start Sci Fi Project. (Still
thinking about an suitable acronym.)
Nope
and Nope.
10) Work on concept for a new
story that came to me while I rested.
A
little bit of this done, but not much in the way of a concrete start.
11) Edit my Untethered Realms
anthology story.
Done.
Yay. I managed one thing.
Reading:
Read 6 books.
I
read 4.
Read some chapters of Les Trois Mousquetaires.
Nope.
Networking
and Marketing:
Rethink Social Network Strategy
This
I did and it’s huge. So much so that it’s taking a chunk of my writing time to
implement.
Regular updates to at least some
of the social networks.
This
I was spotty on because I’m basically rebuiling my entire social network from
scratch in some places.
Confirm new covers for Wo6C series.
Done.
Life:
Maintain balance between life,
writing and work.
Bahahahahahaha
*cries*
Go to dancing classes once a week.
Didn’t
go because the week before I was to go to my first lesson, I discovered that I’m
moving again, so I couldn’t sign the membership contract.
Get into the habit of eating more
frequent, smaller meals. (Stress and an ulcer don’t mix, so I have to help
where I can.)
This
I did and also cut way back on carbs and sugars to help even further.
In short: I managed to do precious
little that I set out to do.
There are a variety of reasons for
this:
1) I’m having to rebuild my
day-job business from scratch yet again. Which means I have to put in more
hours.
2) I’m having to restructure my
social networking (see here if you’re curious as to why and what I’m doing.)
3) I’m a bit of an emotional mess
due to reason number 1
4) While being an emotional mess,
I default to working on The War of Six
Crowns, which means that I broke my own rule of not working on a sequel
before the earlier book is ready for publishing, so that I could work on Book 4
while waiting for CP feed back on Book 3. And now Book 3 needs more work.
5) People, I feel like crying this
morning.
In short, it’s taken just about
two years of unrelenting pressure, but I’ve buckled under. This month was the
most unproductive I’ve ever been and it’s been a downward trend from January.
Yesterday, I spoke to my mother
about how I’m feeling right now and… It’s not good. I’m exhausted. Completely
and utterly. I’ve expended every ounce of my energy to keep going earlier this
year and in return I got my suppliers and clients stolen by someone I trusted
and nothing to show for it because all the money I’d earned went into
surviving.
So.
The situation is this.
I’m not catching a break.
My hard work does not result in anything. Because in this
life, it seems, the only thing that matters is being rich or being lucky. I’m
neither.
And yet, I can’t just give up, so
I have to keep going.
I have to keep working in the
hopes that this time I strike it lucky. And heaven knows I’ll keep writing
because the day I stop that I might as well stop living.
But I can’t keep trying to do so
much because I have readers waiting for Book 3. I probably have one or two
people hoping I get the sequel to Endless
out too. Since The War of Six Crowns is
my happy place, that’s my priority, but other than that, my only priority right
now is to survive rebuilding, moving house, and doing everything else I need to
do in order to have a shot at making it as a writer.
Sorry if this is way too much of a
downer, but this is where I am right now. Hopefully tomorrow is a better day.