Today's another round of IWSG, a bloghop run by Alex J. Cavanaugh where writers can come together to share their insecurities and encouragements.
This month I've pretty much turned into a bundle of insecurity, and it's all centered about my book's release on Friday.
Firstly, because my Publishing House decided to drop the bomb on me last Friday. Secondly, because I now have to put together a marketing campaign on a week's notice. Without any of my materials to date. BTW. If you can help at all, please go here.
My main insecurity has nothing to do with these things. On the contrary. It has to do with what happens after the book is out? See... this is a story I've been working on for years. I've spent years writing, rewriting, and editing. Then I spend almost another year querying. And six months more turning my story into the one that's about to see the light.
I've had this fear so many times before, but I kept pushing it back, saying that I don't need to worry about this just yet. But guess what, the time has come when I can push it back no further, and it's haunting me.
What if it isn't good enough?
What if all my years of work and rejection and work add up to absolutely no reader interest? What if (and this is possible, since I purposely veered into new epic fantasy territory) my target audience despises the story? What if no one except me, my editor and my CPs actually get my story?
Part of me knows that this is irrational, that it's all out of my hands now anyway. But I just can't reason away the fear.
Guess it's a good thing that I only have two days left until my book's out.
Anyone else get pre-publication jitters? How do you deal with them?
One more thing before you go! Ellie Garratt interviewed me today and the interview features an excerpt from The Vanished Knight. I hope you'll check it out!