Sorry if today's post comes out reading and feeling a tad... lumpy. I'm currently super focused on my NaNo project, so any other writing is going to suffer.
This could have been my IWSG post, but since I have a bigger writerly concern as well, I figured I could write about this today.
You see... I have sort of started to doubt if I'll be able to get as far with my NaNo project as I did last year. 2011 saw me writing 25k in about ten days before I froze up and shelved the WiP. But right up to 25k, it was frighteningly easy to write.
This year, though, my story took me by surprise. I thought it would be just a nice run-of-the-mill we-will-prevail sort of dystopian.
Should have known my muse wouldn't be this easy on me. No. I somehow managed to stumble onto a psychological pea soup. Day one went well, but after that, it feels like I'm writing through wool.
It isn't the same feeling as I get while blocking, though. I know what has to happen next and every successive scene comes to me easily. It's just that when I start writing, things are hard.
I think it's because my female main character has grown up in more shit than I originally thought and her mind's workings keep making it hard for me to write her thoughts. Hard... It's actually more like I'm bashing my head against a wall.
My male main character isn't much better. He's not quite the idealist I thought he was, so his approach to revolution is sort of... unnerving.
All this adds up to probably the most difficult book I've ever attempted. Including Doorways.
Not sure if I can do this, but I have to try.
Have you ever written a story that fought you all the way? Did you make it through to the end or did you give up?