Thursday, June 16, 2011

Revisions are taking over my life.

It really hit me today. A realization of the extent to which revisions take over my life.

The little things. 

Like conversations at the dinner table alluding to things that are supposed to be common knowledge. Except that I don't know about it. 

Or the fact that I'm missing my blogging friends because I haven't been around as much as usual. I'm three days behind visiting commenters.  

My voice is slow on the take-off during solo-lessons because I hardly speak. 

Where I never had a TBR pile, I suddenly have a back-log of fourteen books. Not counting the fourteen books that I gave back to the library because I gave up on the idea of reading them. 

I (and this is big to those who know me) haven't been to the movies since February. 

I'm starting to get cabin fever. 

It's just that I'm getting into this place in my head where I feel what's going on. I get sucked in so much that I don't realize just how deep in I am.


So... part of me wants to take a break. Catch up with the world. The other part of me is pulling me to go on. That part I get. That's the part that's been pulling me through to page 115 yesterday.


I am going to go back to university this coming semester, so the more revisions I get done, the better.


Still, I can't help being a little afraid that I'm losing me somewhere in there.


Has anyone felt like this before? How do you deal with it? What should I do? Take a break or keep going?


21 comments:

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Christine Murray said...

It depends how long you've got to go with your edits. If you're almost there, I'd keep on going. If you have a few more weeks to go, I'd take some time off. It sounds like you need a break x

Paul Anthony Shortt said...

Take a break. I was getting close to burnout just working on a follow-up to my first novel so I took a long weekend off, which turned into a full week of not-writing. By the end of it was I dying to get back at it, and now I've de-stressed and given myself a secondary WIP to work on when I want to unwind with some writing that's a little less important.

Michael Offutt said...

Misha...you need an intervention. This isn't healthy. Pace yourself and enjoy life.

Amy said...

Hi Misha! Hang in there, and maybe take a short break. That way you can get a little breathing room, but still be able to be in the zone.

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Rebecca Bradley said...

I agree with everyone else. It sounds as though you know you need a break. It doesn't have to be a huge one, but you need to have some time to be you.

Em-Musing said...

You'll eventually find a balance. Every author has to. No one's looking over your shoulder being critical or judgmental...except you. Relax.

Carrie said...

I vote with taking a break too. Don't think of movies and reading as a distraction from your writing because watching a story on the big screen or reading a story in a book can help your own revisions come together. Good luck with your revisions.

D. U. Okonkwo said...

You need to take a break. I tend to not start revising now until I've put my ms away for a month at least - two is ideal. It allows you to then go back to it much later and look at it with fresh eyes. You'll be able to spot more changes that you want to make. My debut novel took ages to revise simply because I didn't put it away for a bit, and I kept coming back to it, and coming back to it, over and over again.

My advice would be to plan your next novel and give this one a break to get your thoughts together. It's actually what many bestselling authors recommend, too.

Libby said...

I'm a bit of a slacker so I say to take one full day off and do whatever you want. My full days off usually involve either reading or watching movies, something lazy.

Gina Blechman said...

I basically live in writing and revision world. I love it, but, I must say, it's not for everyone. It's normal to take breaks and split your time with the outside world and all that fun stuff. I'm not really normal per say, but, what else is new? :-)

<3 Gina Blechman

J.L. Campbell said...

I was editing for a 21 day period and with blogging and reading and life, I felt the month of May slipped without me living it. I have another book to edit and I'm reluctant to delve into it because I fear the same thing will happen. But I can't avoid it forever. Finding balance is important. Sometimes there's nothing for it, but to step away from the computer and live a little.

anthony stemke said...

I think a break is in order. If you are close to finishing, than you have to decide.
Often, at the ending, last minute details crop up and if you're not careful, a small slip-up (after months of diligence)can derail the whole project.
Please be careful, whatever you decide.

Steph Schmidt said...

If you don't miss knowing the common knowledge gossip about this show or that scandal clogging up your brain, then it's okay. The fact that you're noticing this is a sign that either it's a good thing or your uncomfortable. Change one thing at a time compromising between edits and whatever else until you feel comfortable. Like go to the movies this weekend and edit only up until Friday.

Jolene Perry said...

I'm not one to ask, because the more I write, the more lost I get. Now, I allow myself to get to a stopping point in my WIP, and then I HAVE to get up and do something "normal" before I can go back to it.
It helps, and makes me a little less dazed... Good luck finding your balance!

Misha said...

Thanks, Programmer. :-)

Christine I've still got plenty to do. (about 400 pages left).

Paul, you have a good point. Maybe I do need some time away this weekend.

Thanks Michael. I knew I could count on you.

Thanks for the award, Amy! I'm thinking that I should take that break.

Rebecca, good point. I just need to break the routine for a bit.

Em, that is so true. I have to snap out of it.

So true, Carrie. I really have to replenish my tanks.

DUO I did take a break. Didn't write anything for a month. Now my revisions keep sucking me in.

Libby, that's an idea. One full day to do what I want.

Hahaha Gina, that's so true. I think I get to a point where I enjoy revisions too much. I lose balance and neglect everything else. That gets to me in the end.

JL that's so true. I'm still hunting for that balance.

Thanks, Anthony. I'm also worried that my rushing now will harm my progress in the long run.

Steph, now that you mention it, some of the stuff I don't mind so much, but other ones I'll do. So I just have to sort that out and fix the ones I care about.

Jolene, I also feel dazed after a long session in front of my writing. It's good in that I get into a zone. Bad, because I need adaption time to return to reality. :-)

Maria Zannini said...

Unless you're on a deadline by a publisher, take the time to catch your breath and reconnect.

I know the common myth is that a writer should closet himself, but the truth is we don't write (or edit) well without a little balance in our lives. The manuscript will be there when you're ready to come back.

mooderino said...

You seem to be approaching it in an all or nothing manner. Couldn't you set yourself a set time each day, maybe a couple of hours, and then stop when your time is up, even if you're in the middle of things? Hemingway would do that on purpose so he could jumo straight back into things in the nextr session.

mood
Moody Writing
@mooderino

Misha said...

Maria, that's so true. I really have to find some balance. :-)

Mood that's an excellent tip. Thanks!

Shannon Lawrence said...

As someone who is currently taking a bit of a break from revisions, I definitely recommend a short break! Go see a movie! For me, I finally had to reach the point where I would give myself freedom in the evenings to do something if I accomplished something in the writing world during the day. I wouldn't want to burn out on something I love so much. Good luck with revisions (and your break, if you take/took one)!

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Misha said...

Shannon, this was great advice. I took some time off and it definitely helped. :-)